Introduction of Rebecca's Mind..

This really is me...

     I am simply astonished by little things.. Hint the simple part of that sentence. Maybe life isn't as it should be in the terms simple, but you make it that way. It takes your will power to make anything so simple as it can be. From the start of the day to the end, what you do is your choice right? So why not choose simple. For example as I have already started my journey of rambling, I could have avoided all that and just said if you want to be happy, smile. If you want to be sad, cry. It's that simple. I rather a more complex way of saying, as where the astonished comes into the first sentence I wrote. Little things can be as simple as the ants making there home in a field that horses roam. They too are like me. Simple as its home and natural to them, but complex because its dangerous no matter where they go. Oh am I confusing you yet? I am sorry if so, but this really is me. 

       

     From first base to third (No, I am not talking about sexual things, but baseball.) You run around the field trying to make it safe without striking out. The sweat drips down your brow as you are staring at the home base, listening to the crowd cheering your name. You begin to run, sliding in to home third basemen chasing after you with the ball in his glove. He throws it in to the home man, catching it and tagging you on your leg just as your cleat hits the home base. The tension that builds as the referee calls, "Safe."  You, yes you, just won the game. Maybe that feeling that hits my gut every time I think of my future. I want to be the one who wins the game. No not really baseball, but life. I know everyone is a winner, but truth is that was the lie you were told as a kid. You really are a looooser, if you are anything like me. 18 living at home helping my mother with her coffee shop. I have maybe 100$ to my name. I have completed a year of college at a school i'd never recommend to anyone. And took a semester off. Now I actually miss writing papers. That's sad and pathetic I know. I have one best friend, she lives in PA. I have a guy best friend, he lives in England. Oh then there is the few that I call best friends, but I really never know if they want to be apart of my life or not. They live here and there. No friends don't make up who I am in life, but i like to believe they are a big part of my life.. I love my best friends though, that I know are my best friends. Yeah, I'm still a looooser..



     I love that you can call me friend, and I will be here for you. Don't use me though, I am fragile. Anyway this is just a quick map of me.. Not the whole story. Read on, maybe you will learn to love me or hate me. I guess it's up to you!(: