Moms and their favorite child..

That's not me..

  I find it hard to get along with her.. Especially when I try to be an adult myself.. Like she doesn't think  I can grow up. I'm sorry, but I am ready to spread my wings and fly away.. 

   I love her, don't get me wrong. I love being with her near her and just seeing her.. But living with her day after day, we just don't get along. It doesn't help her son is her BEST kid.. She favors him. I know parents you are going to tell me that it isnt true.. Well THIS IS! 

                      A few years back, when  he was 14. (he is 20 now) He had a brain tumor.. Few signs where there all his life.. Poor motor skills, head aches, and soon enough his eyes started to wonder, he started vomiting all over, and just became very week. Mom took him to the eye doctor and that's where it all began.. The doctor freaked and started to panic and cry. Finally mom got cj to the ER where they all just looked in his eye not seeing this before. (His eye that should be open like a Doughnut whole was closed shut as if someone put a munchkin in the whole.)  Either way, I was at school and have not heard from them. I came home, got off the bus, did some home work, and took a nap. Around 9pm my neighbor came and got me saying I was too stay with her for some time until we hear word from mom. I still had no idea what was going on. After several hours in the ER he was finally taken to a hospital closer to the city. Where a few days went by, and I finally heard from mom. She had explained what was going on. His surgery was scheduled for a few days after living in the ICU. Apparently if it would have been a moment later he could be dead. Though they had time to wait for the brain surgeon to get back. Surgery happened, lots of things went on during this time.. That I could tell you.. But it's better to hear in person. After surgery he had been Diagnosed with a rare syndrome called Posterior fossa syndrome. This created even more rehab time then what most brain tumor victims go through. I was then shipped to another house where I finally felt at home. Though I didn't mind where I was at, just not use to having so many "younger" siblings around when I was the youngest. Anyway to make this short I lived without my family for almost a year.  In this time period mom and I grew apart. Her and him got closer. I got pulled into a new world to me.. Being alone.